Conversation on The Porch

 Today was a very beautiful spring day in May.  Although the air smelled sweet with newly arrived flowers and the sun was brightly shining, I was unable to feel equally beautiful.  I started the day with my morning routine of yoga and meditation followed by a one hour walk. When I arrived home I had breakfast, did some cleaning and then did some errands. When I returned home I was tired but unable to rest.  I tried reading, watching some cooking shows for inspiration for dinner but couldn't seem to sit still. My fiancé wasn't home and my dog had recently passed away so there was an immense feeling of emptiness in the house.  I decided to step outside onto my porch and give my recently planted herbs some much needed water.  I sat there for a while when one of my neighbours came by and we started to talk.  I invited her in to sit with me. We talked a little about this and that and then she started to share something very personnel.  She explained that six years ago her husband had passed away from pancreatic cancer. He died in six months after being diagnosed.  Although I knew she had a husband who had passed away I did not know the whole story.  She told of how they met and important events in their life together, From the way she spoke about him I could feel  how much she missed him and loved him. I made us some tea and we talked some more.  She knew my dog had just died and asked how I was feeling.  I felt a bit embarrassed to say I was still grieving after hearing her story, but she spoke before I did and said its ok to feel that same missing as she did.  We looked at each other and smiled and just sat there quietly before we expressed  what a lovely day it was.